[QUOTE=AF;wcj]…I do not know the truth, nor do i care, i know only what they’ve told me. My family was dying, i did not had the power, but they did, they’ve told me that if i fight for them my family will be safe… thank God, i did not bear the thought to see them live another day in this wretched place…
If they keep this promise, if they keep my family safe i will be their merc, i will search in this nightmare they have created for those secrets, i still don’t know what they need, but i will find it, whatever it takes…
We have crawled underground to live like rats, to escape the bomb… we didn’t… we have only prolonged the inevitable …i curse the day i had to chose to go underground, if only i stayed outside… i will be rotting in a common grave, dead… not fading little by little with every day it passes…
…Is this Hell?.. they gave me some gear, taken from a corpse left outside of the entrance, my old gear was useless, destroyed by this cursed rain, it seams that i must do the job he did not finish… at least is free, i do not have to pay it with my rations… the smell is everywhere, even the rats meat smell like death…
…their is nothing left outside of the walls… every where is the same, we heard it on the com radio, some guys tried to see it from themselves… i still have nightmares… we had to pick them up bit by bit so that the scientists discover what happend…nowhere to run.
Proxy left… i did not know her well, but still it hurts, i signed the place we found her… i always put that sign whenever i found a merc dead body… so that i can remember and not lose all that is left from my humanity…
… i saw my neighbor on the other day, fighting for the other side… i stopped for a second and saw the day i helped him in his garden… he let me take some flowers… back home… my wife…my boy…
…the pain… one bullet… saved me on that day… scratched my shoulder and i was back…his eyes were not the same…he saw me… what did they do to him?.. what did CDA did to all of us?.. kill thy neighbor? Is this the new Truth?
…I finally understood why they hit this city… they will not do this for some oil and some green… to wipe a world…my life, for some secret hidden under this city? … why did i trust them? why did i trust them with my family?.. they said they will be safe, far away from this, on some hidden island…an Ark… It this another lie?
…i hope you’re alive Joseph…i hope to see you soon…
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ArK Fatalis - Tome of Fear/William “Skyhammer” Chen journal 